i am ready

I am ready for change.
I am ready for challenge.
I am ready for peace.
I am ready for patience.
I am ready for heartbreak.
I am ready for healing.

I am ready for you.

i found this on myspace...

"God can be loved, yet He cannot be thought. He can be grasped by love, but never by concepts. So less thinking and more loving."

love vs. words, happy christmas

words, what exactly are they? they are a basic way of communication, possibly the second best way to communicate. whats the first then? well, i think love. what is love? as dictionary.com puts it, "the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God."
as christians, isn't this what our entire life is based upon? being a light of Christ, nothing more, nothing less. we can say things through words, but act in other ways, that are not loving. our actions speak louder then our words, straight up. people are not going to see our words in this world, they are going to see our actions.

i think you get the point on the difference.

so, how can we acheive this 'love' thing? by not being a part of this world. we are not governed by the same 'gods' of this world. we need to stand differently; full of love. how are non-believers expected to ever be led to christ if they cannot decipher non-fiction from ficiton, or, christians from the rest of the world.

this is something i am struggling with, especially this holiday season. i am rushing around to find gifts and goodies, and i am not doing simple things such as thanking bus drivers, or giving spare change to those in need. i am to consumed with my own self to even begin to consider other people. this isn't how God told me how to act(refer to definition of love).

this needed to be said; though only in words, it's a step towards a happy holiday filled with Christ!

thank you.

i just wanted to say thank you to all my friends and family who have brought me to this place in my life. i am so grateful for having such a strong christian base to fall back upon; though i may stray from time to time, i will always remember how great God is. i can never be seperated from his love.
amen.

it's not over.

i can't help but tell myself that i will never escape my old ways. i feel as though things just, as much as i want it to change, they will never change as fast as i want them too. i do expect them to change, because i know that God lives, but, i feel as though it just isn't happening fast enough. i need faith, and lot's of it. i tend to overlook the love and support that surrounds me, and i completely regret that. i cannot understand why i get so caught up in not my own actions, but the actions of others. if i am going to be a light for Jesus, then my heart, my life, my everything needs to be souly focused on him. im going to stumble; im going to hit the ground hard at times, but i need to remember to get back on my feet and not forget, but to not dwell on my actions.

happy christmas.

'tis the season to be jolly. are we really "jolly" or are we infact hypnotised into this continual consumerism. walmart's and superstore's open 24/7, malls extending their hours. we are not, i am not, living souly for God this season, or even acknowledging his son's birth. i am not "jolly" because its all an act, isn't it? i need to be brought back to reality; not the reality we see on tv, but the reality that lives inside my heart.

don't figure it out yourself; you won't win.

our lives are like puzzles; figuring out where each piece lies. my life is scattered across a large, plain white room; nothing but a mess of pieces and i don't even know where to start. that's the thing, i can't start. i need to let a higher, more all-knowing being enter my life and help me with this gumble of pieces. God, the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. i need to let my words and my actions represent the conviction i feel in my heart. i need to live for HIM, but, its harder then it looks; isn't everything we do though?