Dear Dream,

Listen to the ocean rumble beneath your precious feet. Act as if it is okay, sure, but sooner or later you are either going get splashed in the face or have the ground from underneath you precious feet crumble. Don't lose hope, your close enough to the shore. Keep Running. Moments like this are what make you grateful for every past, present and future experience, scent, taste, sight you witness too. You are just a pixel on the puzzle piece. You have one life to live, pursue it fully! So many people waste their lives on things they will look back and frown upon. Push through, don't lose hope. You're almost there.

One year, two months and fifteen days I hope I will look back upon this and remember how much it meant to me and smile once I reached my dream. I may crack, trip, tumble, and fall, but I will get their...unless? Unless it was never meant to occur, then I will gain insight into the new door that will be opened and revealed to me.

Pursue you're life. You only have one to live.

This is my mission, to love, to learn, and to pursue everything I do with truth, honesty, and boldness! Acting, here I come!

Love,
Daniel.

You.

Are you Free?
In my life, I do not know when my last breath will be drawn, I do not know the next turn I will be making. But, til the day I die I hold onto the thought that I will be set free from all my inequities. Tomorrow holds an adventure of its own, even if it is still the same thing Monday - Friday, "It's a new dawn, it's a new day".

food for thought. yum.

on the contrary...

You are one in 6.7 billion. remember that you're special, just the way you are!

pixie-dust hope.

He sits at his bedside, writing out his most complicated questions. He doesn't even understand the slightest what he is trying to say. Who is He? That is a question he asks more than once a day. He found hope when he was a little boy and hasn't lost hold of that ever since. It's tinkerbell's pixie-dust for him; his hope can make him fly. So, where is he flying to next? After diving deep into his soul, the dream of acting and being apart of the entertainment industry rang a glorious song written by only the heavenly. If it is not in his ultimate plan, then he will have to learn to accept it and rest on the hope that he hopes onto so tightly every single day. He will never be able to achieve this dream on his own, oh no, he will have to hold onto good friends and his eternal friend; Jesus. This is just the beginning and he finally found the plan that he was searching for. well, he didn't find it, it was simply revealed to him in perfect timing; true bliss. He will work hard for one year to prepare for the big step; moving to a new land and attending VADA. He knows this is what he wants to do. This is what he dreams of, always has on his mind. Much like his pixie-dust hope, if he doesn't allow it to breathe and make him fly, he will never achieve his goals. He is growing up and cannot have such a tight grip on everything. Some things will never make sense and he needs to understand that. But, in the end his destiny is figured out and he needs to rest on the fact that he is loved eternally and that he can do anything and everything with the Lord by his side.

don't play mind games, face the facts.

these things i know:
-do what you love
-don't do it for yourself
-live vicariously through truth, hope and love.
-if it fails, don't give up, simply take a step back and analyze. if something is meant to happen, it will.

these things i know.

dear decade,

i cannot believe that the new year is officially at our door, knocking. what a year it has been and as i was reading another blog, this person posted about how we are bringing in a new decade. such a bizzare thought. remember the 90's, the 80's, the 70's. well, what will be said about the millennium?
war, 9/11, tsunami, suicide-bombers, iPod's, dvd and blu-ray, H1N1, health and medical advancements, YouTube, Facebook, Twitter, PostSecret, FML, MLIA, etc etc.

what will be said about the decade of 2010?
what can we change in our lives to make it more positive than the 2000's?

want, or need?

i want something extreme to take place in my life.
i want to be famous, somehow, someway.
im not necessarily talking about hollywood famous, but i want to be known in heavens, on earth; both together united.
i want to be free like the wind.
i want to sing songs that carry through the cosmo's.
i want to explore the people in this world.
i want to discover myself.
i want to learn more.
i want to be holy.
i want to be more than what i imagine myself ever becoming.
i want to live life with no regrets, but only turning points.
i want so much more.
what do you want?

little songbird, you have nothing to do with me.

i seem to collapse at the sight of my failures. i look at myself after i bath myself in sin and i tell myself i cannot go on living for Jesus. then, when i shower and can see my skin for how it is, i realize there is hope. but then i fall into the lies i create and it is a cycle that has been occurring every week or two since september.

why?

im fearful of things i cannot see.

i place my trust in the lack of knowing what will happen an hour from now. but i still trust.

i really cant stay still.

i will forever be intertwined with my past.
it will always be there.
i can change. not on my own. i need to surrender.
i cannot accept a life full of blank pages.
this is my one life. live each day as if its your last? maybe live each day in faith that you will be carried through til the next.

i want to sing
i want to model
i want to paint
i want to explore the planet
i want to write #1 songs
i want to write a book
i want to be a photographer

maybe, because these are all things i want i wont receive it? must i surrender them?

tomorrow is a new day. i make mistakes every single day(so do you) and i pray that i can wake up with the love that Jesus has placed in my heart.


pray?

Dear Jesus,

why do i sleep so strangely. i do not understand the story or the planning for this at all. i hope i dont fall asleep while working tomorrow.

maybe this is a sign that as my life is continually not steady, no-consistency when it comes to me and you. maybe, just maybe, my sleep is even being affected by my sinful ways!

help me understand.
your struggling child,
Daniel

Dear Jesus,

help me rid myself of vanities, of pains, of sins, of mistakes, of worthless emotions. fill me with love, with peace, with beauty, with joy, with true emotion.

yours truly,
Daniel

dear Jesus,

im sorry for leaving you. though it may be just a short time in the long run, it has felt like eternity. i hope i can come back to you. that translated means i hope i want to come back to you soon. like right now.

i miss you Jesus. i know your still here though and that makes my heart warm inside. i cannot comprehend how you forgive people like me every single second of every single day. that is a miracle in which i will never understand.

Jesus, i used to adore you, love you, want to be like you. what happened to little ol' me? i need a divine intervention.

this is my first prayer in a long time, but here it is, out in the internet. im opening up. take me as i am Lord.

yours truly,
daniel

canker sores suck and so does vitamin d

to do with the title. i have one right on my lip, where it rubs on my tooth like crazy... OUCH!

but, to do with the other topic of the title, autumn is settling in nicely and i am loving it and despising it at the same time.

this is the season where scientifically our bodies experience a lack of vitamin D which can psychologically lead to depression. spiritually, this is the time of year where i usually end up wondering if i truly believe in God and if i am devoting my whole life to Him. because of this, Satan prowls and hunts for people like me. depression is a strong part of my past and i feel it creeping back towards me. please, keep me in your prayers as i keep you in mine.

i love you friends, i really do.

...never fade away :)

Near my house there is some graffiti written on a wall under the train tracks. It read:
"You are my shining star, never fade away."
Then, on another wall, it reads:
"Never fade away..."

Just thought it was cute and had to share it with you.

i wake up and smell the air lingering from lastnights musical.

music,
style, smiles,
tea, coffee, rain,
sun, hope, life, boots,
raincoats, fingerless gloves, peace, guitar, voice,
speech, duvet, piano, female voice, echo, echo,
echo.

You're my only one

i cannot comprehend anything, ever nor will i ever be able to. want to know why? because im in love.

im in love with Jesus and He makes life a mystery. one that i can't help but lean into, dive into, jump into, soar into and well, unintentionally, fall in love with even more.

:) i love you Jesus.

:)

the time is 3:40am and i have connected with someone whom i didnt think i would. i may not have accomplished my craft party which motivated me originally to stay up all night, but something more beautiful occurred; friendship.

six pack, sleeping like a baby!

here is a praise, be encouraged, brothers and sisters, for prayer and hope is real:

for about two months i have had a stomach pain and i got blood work, U.A's and other tests. the doctors, three different ones, had no idea what it was. they thought maybe i was celiac, but im pretty sure im not. they thought i pulled my stomach muscles and i did, but they are basically healed (i can workout again!). also, i have been having super broken sleeps and i actually had a nightmare...of numbers and letters all around me...i studied for math right before bed...weird...haha, but anyways, all of this has been going on for two months, right?

well, i went to my family doctor yesterday and he looked over all my tests, which all cleared and looked normal. so, he was kind of confused. but the thing is, is that since about monday oct.5, i havent been having really any extreme stomach pains. my body is healing and resting and through prayer and hope that God will heal, i am being healed! this is such a phenomenon and i love it.

also, my sleeping, well i got these natural pills for insomnia and they are working...so, no more no sleep. i sleep like a baby and its wonderful.

...now, its time to get back in shape. physically, spirtually, emotionally, and did i already say physically? why of course, but lets be reminded that i can now finally excersize! woop woop!


...clearly, this is not a normal blog, but i need to inform you, internet world.

ttyl.

think.

what's the difference between
drowning in water

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and
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drowning in sin?